Archive | September, 2013

Enjoying my pregnancy

18 Sep

I have only 4 weeks to go until my beautiful baby is here and I can’t wait to meet her, I have enjoyed every stage of this pregnancy and to be able to say that is such a triumph, after the ups and downs we have been through to get here. At times I never thought I could get back to the woman I was when I gave birth to my beautiful girl 2 years ago yesterday, full of positivity, faith and joy.

Eivissa a few minutes old

Eivissa blowing out her candles on her 2nd birthday.

After suffering 2 miscarriages I wasn’t sure how I was going to enjoy being pregnant again. The thought of 40 weeks of fear really scared me. We decided to put things on hold and to just enjoy what I had been blessed with, my daughter, husband, family and friends and hopefully once my mind was healed then another baby would follow.

Fast forward to a healthier state of mind and equipped with a healed heart, we found out the best news, that we were expecting again, we were thrilled to bits but also weary and cautious due to our difficult past. We were sent for an early scan at 6 weeks and seeing that little heart beat was amazing, I knew from that moment that our baby would be healthy and strong.

In order to enjoy my pregnancy I decided to act hoping my feelings would follow. We told close family and friends we were pregnant as soon as we found out, knowing that their prayers and positive vibes were going to spur us on, it certainly made those first 12 weeks a lot easier.

12 week scan pic

The last two times we were in this room, the news wasn’t good, now it was ‘our time’. Documenting this gave us a focus, turning a negative into something very positive.

Just before we went in
At 20 weeks we had a gender reveal party, we wanted to make every moment of this pregnancy a real celebration! it was such a fun way to find out we were having a girl! I could now start to think about what she would be like, collecting things for her momento box.

I have loved having my bump again and this time I have made sure to take pictures every week.



Yey at 30 weeks my bump decided to properly show up!

33 weeks on holiday. I was really proud to show off my bump. We had a really great time and I felt in good health. Only a little swelling of the feet but otherwise I was able to keep up with everyone else.

I feel such a sense of achievement that I have been able to overcome my fears and feel stronger and wiser than when I had my little girl. I’m hoping my experience can give hope to some women who have suffered miscarriage or loss. We will be appearing on the next series of ‘Oneborn what happened next.’ They have featured our story and the new pregnancy. It makes me happy that our second little girl will see how much she was hoped and prayed for.

Sit down interviews for Oneborn follow up show.

Eivissa helping cameraman Ben out.