Archive | April, 2013

Expecting again!

23 Apr

If you are a regular reader of my blog you will know our story of how we weren’t sure if we could have children, but fortunately for us, we were blessed with our beautiful daughter, Eivissa. We wanted to grow our family even more and when Eivissa was 8 months old, I fell pregnant again. Unfortunately, it wasn’t meant to be and I sadly miscarried. I wanted to keep strong and keep faith we would be pregnant again and soon enough I was, this time was going to be great I thought, but sadly once again, I miscarried.
I was floored, full of fear in case it happened again, I was scared about been able to enjoy pregnancy without reflecting on the miscarriages. I knew deep down that I had the strength to overcome this and I needed to pick myself up, stay true to myself and my positive outlook on life and be confident I was going to become a mummy again.

My way to deal with this was just to enjoy life, enjoy having Eivissa and loving Danny, I didn’t want to put any pressure on time. Then, out of the blue I fell pregnant again. The first thing I did was call my closest family and friends and told them the good news, we wanted as many of our close circle wishing good health and prayers upon our unborn child, we didn’t want to go those first 12 weeks alone.

I know something special is going to come with this pregnancy, even thinking back to the day we conceived, I knew there and then. The day after I started feeling pregnancy symptoms. I was dying to take a test but I knew it was too early. The wait was killing me but, I was sure that I was. Then sure enough the line appeared on the test and my feelings became a reality.

positive!!!

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Yey we were expecting again!! I knew this time felt different. Every time I felt my fear for the baby. I thought, no, Fear is not going to steal my joy.

The first 12 weeks are the longest, the excitement, uncertainty and nervousness were at times hard to contain but as my scan approached I started to reflect back at the 2 previous times where the news wasn’t so good, but for the first time I began to feel a little peace about our losses, I knew that our babies were being looked after and that made me more determined than ever never to take anything for granted.

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The day of the scan, we were directed to the same room that had so many negatives attached to it but this time it was to be a positive. As soon as the sonographer placed the ultrasound on my stomach, she turned the screen towards me to reveal a perfectly formed, healthy little baby. Tears of joy rolled down my face. Thank you God.

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I want to thank everyone for their encouragement, prayers and for the wonderful emails we have received. It has helped to build us up so that we can enjoy this time without worry. I hope this gives hope to people.